Now what to do????

    Now what to do?   It seems odd to find myself at a point, where I have some wonderful opportunities in the near future. This also means that I'll have to make some choices about what I do. None of the options are bad, and all of them would allow me to follow my passion in helping others. It just so happens that I need to start thinking about it now. I would love to pretend that I can be super woman, put on my cape and do everything, but I know that it would not be healthy for me. Self-care is something I must keep in mind if I am to do things well. I am thrilled to know that I have a choice of what I can do and I am far from deciding on what that might look like.
   Anyway, who says that I can't do more than one.
   I do know that I will need to be more in tune with myself and listen to my heart. The challenge comes in knowing that I'll have to put somethings on the back burner for awhile. I am not very good at this, as I like to complete the things I have started and sometimes I find it difficult to pick up a project and move forward with it after I have lost some of the momentum.
   It does feel good to know that my hard work is starting to pay off, and there is apart of me that is pinching myself, because I never believed I would be able to accomplish the things I have.
   As someone who lives with a serious mental illness there is not always a lot of support or encouragement to dream big. I am indeed very luck to have people in my life who see the value not only in me as a person but, also in my lived experiences. I think one of the challenges I am trying to get ahead of by thinking about all of this now is, learning to believe in myself enough to know that I can do anything, and that includes dreaming big.
   Getting rid of old behaviors like, self doubt, self destruction, and just in general screwing things up before they get to good, are what I need to work on. Until then I'll just keep reminding myself that if others believe in me then I should trust and believe in me.