Need for Self-Care Day 2

     I am in a rut about this whole self-care issue, not good. I just want to find someway to take care of me. Yet, I allow myself to get pulled into other peoples projects, even when I want nothing to do with them. I love my mom, and as many of you know she lives with Hubby and I. Yesterday she had the day off, yes even at 73 she still chooses to work. She decided to redo her bedroom, this meant that the bed had to be moved, pictures on the wall had to be taken down, etc. etc., well she wasn't going to be able to do this by herself, and how can I say no to mom, so guess who got pulled into it. All of this then lead her to want to do the guest bedroom. Yep, I spent a good part of my day getting interrupted from whatever I might have been trying to do for myself.
    Needless to say self-care did not happen. I find myself this morning fighting that sort of niggley little feeling, you know the one that says that if you don't watch it depression is just around the corner. I find my self feeling anxious, restless and somewhat short of patients. I know that I don't have a busy week ahead of me, but still there are things that need to be done. I have had a very busy past 2 weeks, my sleep has not been the best and I feel a bit alone. What I mean is that I really have not had someone to just talk to, someone who is willing to make time for me. Heck, I'm not even making time for me so I guess I fall into that category also.
   Here is my challenge I know I NEED to DO SELF-CARE. I am aware of my feelings. I recognize all of the little warning flags that are going up and I won't have the house to myself until the middle of the week, barring that Hubby doesn't come home sometime between now and then.
   I'm not sure why I am struggling so much with this. Could it be that after taking care of everyone else's needs I want someone to take care of me?, or is it that pesky little 12year old girl who says "I've been doing everything for them now they should be doing something for me. Can't they see I need comforting?"
   Yep, I think I nailed that one on the head. Now I need to figure out how to comfort her and let her know that all of her hard work is appreciated. That it's not all about giving with the expectation of getting something in return. Giving is something we do from the heart. Whatever we get in return is a blessing, even if it is nothing, the blessing is in the giving.
   Well I'll just have to see what I can come up with. I need to find something fun. I'm missing fun in my life, it has been way to serious lately.