I learned something new

   Yep, I learned something new about myself this weekend and the last couple of days. My choice to not jump into "fix it" mode means that I have indeed started to change a very old behavior pattern. I find this exciting and interesting. I knew that the work I had been doing with my counselor, and by myself, over the last year was changing things. But, nothing really made me see it more than I did in this last weekend.
    It is empowering to know that I can change old behaviors and walk away from a situation that would have caused me and hubby a great deal of stress. I let go, trusted that I would be okay. I did not need anyone else to make me feel better. I did not need to fix it to feel better. This is a huge step for me, as I have struggled with control issues and have in the past felt that if I did not control things they would turn out badly. This time the only thing I controlled was my response and what I choose to do with my response. I just trusted me, let go and the world did not end...yea!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Hubby did call and he sounds a lot better. I'm happy that I have found out something new about myself and the ability to learn new behaviors that are much more positive. What's that old saying? " Can't teach an old dog new tricks" well yes you can....