Have I mentioned...??????

  Have I mentioned how much I hate going through this....I HATE IT........already on the down side and it seems that all I can do is cry and get angry and lash out at the people closest to me. Totally not fair to them. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.....I'm trying really hard not to run and find something else to distract me because I now that there really is no distraction. I know that I have skills in there somewhere that would help me cope but I can't seem to find them at this point. It is another one of those where I just want to hide in the dark for awhile. Have I said that I HATE THIS!!!!! I feel like a human Yo-Yo and I just want it to stop. I can only hope that I get into see my Doc. within the next two days and hopefully get ahead of the worst of this, until then You guys will just have to put up with my random and sometime moody, angry blogs.