Seriously More Insecure

I am struggling with feeling good about myself right now.  And I don't believe that I am alone. In these trying economics times many of us are feeling their self worth/ self esteem dropping as the balance in our bank accounts gets smaller. I ask my self why am I feeling less worthy than I did when we were doing well financially? Have I linked myself worth with a dollar amount?  Is it just the stress of  worry that wears us down? I know that as I struggle with the pressure of living in a recession and trying to make the most of every penny, which we all can relate to. I find that it brings different challenges for me. As a person with a smi these sorts of things often trigger strong emotions for me. Anything from panic, not good as I have panic disorder, anxiety, have that too, depression, that goes without saying. Some days I can not hide the tears, they come and go as they please. I try with every fiber in me to believe that it will all be okay. I still wake up every morning, the sun is still shinning, yes life does go on no matter what our bank account says. Yet for some reason I have seen myself, and my husband also, view our self worth as less because of the challenges we are facing in this recession.
So I try to remind myself that I am priceless and that my worth can not be bought. I may not be able to pay bills with it but in the end it is all that I have. When I begin to feel insecure about myself and the world around me, my natural instinct is fight or flight. Somedays I want to flee but it is much better that I fight because when I fight I find that I am stronger that I remembered being and start to feel more secure. So for today I will fight and I'll worry about tomorrow when it gets here. I will try to see my worth and not place a dollar amount upon it. I will see my strength and know that I am secure with who I am, no matter if I am rich or poor.