Second Most Important

 The Second Most Important thing for me to remember to do is to take care of myself. Why is this second on my list you ask? Because for me the first is to take my medications, which help me on a daily basis.
As I have shared over the last days I have been struggling.
 This morning I woke up and felt renewed with what seems to be a new sense of hope and the strength to fight. I wish I could put into words exactly what changed but I can't. I know that as a person with a serious mental illness sometimes stress triggers a whole lot of things, among those depression, hopelessness, isolation and a lack of motivation.
 Yesterday I tried to make sure that I was taking care of myself and of course blogging has now become apart of that, and I thank everyone for listening and being so supportive. My husband made sure that I got out of the house, even though I really did not want to. I came home and tried to find the reasons to hold onto hope, and blogging about it helped me to get it out of my head and into a place where I could look at it in a different light. I have realized that for me holding on to hope is so important, because today is different than yesterday and tomorrow will be different than today. Years ago when my daughter was about three and as a single mom I was struggling. I could not pay the bills. One morning as I was laying in bed crying because I felt hopeless my daughter crawled into bed with me and asked why I was crying. I told her that mommy was sad because I could not pay the bills and that meant that we would have no lights. With only the wisdom that a sweet innocent child could speak she said to me "That's okay mommy because the sun always comes up." To this very day I think of those words and they bring me hope. The sun does indeed always rises no matter what is going on in our lives.