I find myself struggling with this depression again, maybe not again, more like still. I know that when I was at the conference it was easier to be distracted by what I needed to do and to forget how important self care is. It has taken me four days just to feel as if I am somewhat stable. I've been working through self doubt, lack of motivation and isolation.
At first I just blew it off as part of being away from home and tired, but I have come to recognize the flags (signs) that are popping up and I now understand that my depression didn't just go away while I was out of town. I was just better at running from it. I am struggling to learn balance. How do I continue to do the things that are important to me and how do I avoid the sort of hangover effect of pushing myself too much? Self care seems to be the obvious answer but it is easier said than done at times. Much like exercise, I know that it is good for me, but when I am struggling with depression I find it hard to get the motivation to do anything, including self care.
I know that there is a balance between seeing what I do as important and recognizing that I am important. I think the best thing for accomplishing balance is to gain a better understanding that I can not do one with out the other.
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