Looking for ???????

     I saw my counselor yesterday and we are looking at what would be beneficial to work on next. We talked about several things and what I decided on was to work on the image I have of my self (unstable self image). I think, ok who am I kidding, I know that this is part of why I push myself so hard at times, and yes I could run through the whole list of things this impacts. I'm not sure that is relevant just yet, maybe in another blog. 
    Part of doing this is to have a something like a mission statement or a vision statement for my life.....ie. what is my life's mission, what is my life's work,what is my passion, my lifes philosophy........ I had never really thought about this.
    I know what my passion is, that is to change the way people see mental illness, to reduce the stigma and guilt people attach to mental illness. Is it really what I'm looking for?? I don't know.
    This is to be something that I live by and something I aspire to, something which helps to propell me through life even when things are tough. I know it is there. I just haven't ever really thought about it, much less tried to put it into words.
    For me it has always just been a feeling, or a sense, that there was something more for me out there and that I had to have unconditional faith that I would end up where I needed to be. I just needed slow down long enough to hear what the universe was trying to tell me. Which I have not always been good at. 
    My counselor says that I might be able to find it in my blogs, that it is probably already there. So I guess I'll re-read them and see what jumps out at me.................................
...............Looking for???????????????????????????
I'll let you know when I find it. If you see before me let me know or at least give me a hint.