The Bi-Polar express

People have often heard me describe bi-polar as a roller coaster. Sooo today I thought I would share the ride.
Let me help to set the stage. We are all excited as we stand in line waiting for our turn. We see people getting on and off of the ride, some laughing and some crying. Now it is finally our turn, yeah.......
"Everyone please step into the car and be seated. Please make sure that you keep your hands and feet inside the car at all times". The lap bar moves into place and we hear it click, that sound means you can’t get out now (this is what I call my anxiety stage).... We slowly move out of the station, click, click, click... up we go. The view is nice as we go up (feeling happy)... not so scary, click click click. Then there we are at the top, we want to take a look around but(manic)...before we know it we are screaming downhill (depression), Hey what just happened to the view I was enjoying. As we hit the bottom at break neck speeds we are thrown around a sharp right turn (fighting the depression), hang on because there is a cork screw turn that is sure to make you feel as if your world is topsy turvy (self explanatory). Okay we think "I made it through that"(feeling stable) wait, up we go, click click, click, another nice view (higher energy but not manic).....and down at break neck speeds this time into a dark tunnel that seems like it is not going to end (deep depression, maybe even suicidal). Then wooosh out the other end we fly around another sharp left hand turn (okay moved past the dark depression). Just enough time to catch our breath and we are slingshoted around another series of turns, and up hill we go again, click ,click, click....one last drop downhill at break neck speeds.. Then we hear a woosh and feel the car start to slow as we pull into the station. “Hope you enjoyed your ride please exit the car to your left and have a nice day" the catch is that you don't get to leave......Yes sometimes this ride makes me laugh, it makes me cry, and some days it just scares me.... I also want you to know that there are some great things about my life and I think if we all take a closer look at the roller coaster we would find that whether you are challenged with a mental illness or not that we can all most likely relate to a lot of these feelings. What it means is that I am not all that different from anyone else....I just ride the ride more often some days.